Curiosity !!!

I have no clue why after a long long time todayI missed you a bit!
Not really missing
Rather, technically, a plain, simple curiosity
About your life now
I wonder where you are
How you are
What you are up to
If you still are the same
If you still smile the same way

If you have put up some weight or lost some
Or maybe you look the same
Probably age has caught up a bit with you
And you look more mature
Chances are less that even today you have that sweet, innocent look on your face

Do you still chat and laugh non stop on the most useless topics around ?
Or speak only on intelligent matters that matter to the world
If you still proudly show your new shoes five times to near and dear ones
Or simply take off the new tag and wear them
If your new friends know the stories of your favorite clothes
Or they simply recognize them as your stuff

Maybe you still keep record of every penny you spend
Or perhaps you now have a more casual, relaxed attitude.
I remember the way your eyes use to sparkle while having good coffee
Do you still love and enjoy coffee so much?

I hope you still get elated when a good friend calls
And you spend hours talking about here and there
And not that the phone calls that you receive are mostly official.

I wish you still show your anger and irritation to close ones and share your troubles
You know pouring your heart out at times works wonders for everyone
And do not dump troublesome matters for long time in your system for long.

I have no clue how things have been with you
And it has been a long time
But today out of the blue
Simply popping out of the thin air
For no real, good reason
I missed you a bit!!!!

KEEP SMILING !!!

Smile.....

At times they mean and portray our real emotions, sometimes just a fake one, and yeahhh... The sarcastic ones exist too !!

It is said that you can find out the real nature of a smile in an individual's eyes.. When we really feel the moment and and genuinely mean it, then there is a soft glow or shine that comes in our eyes.

Smiles can overcome a lot of problems and prevent relationships from hardening or simply make matters flow...

But one particular smile that i am personally intrigued by is the one that we give when no one is around.. It is not for any one's benefit or to showcase anyhing. It just comes and lightens things around.

You are listening to the radio and suddenly a song starts playing which you liked a lot when you were a kid and there you go.. SMILESSS !!! Another one plays and you know it is the one which used to be the chartbusters at the time you were going around with that special some one and it used to warm your heart at that time and yess.. It creats the same magic even today and you smile remembering those moments and thinking how life goes on and ahead...

You are searching your laptop for some particular file/ document and you come across a snap of yours taken in college times.. You are enjoying the time, giggling, just doing time pass...a bunch of MBA students and you smile.. Remembering those carefree times when you were not bounded by office timings and you were your own king !

One sees a bunch of students in the metro talking animatedly about CAT entrances, Discussing Coaching institutes, trying to figure out what disciplines to opt for in MBA, placements etc. And there you are. You get a feeling of "Being There And Having Done It All !!" And again, you just smile.. It feels nice somehoe watching others being there where you were at some time time of life and how important it felt then !

You are lying on the bed going through the day in your mind... You remember something nice that one of your collegues said. That time you could not appreciate the beauty of his thoughts but at this time you are free and you smile to yourself in the darkness.

You are looking for the right clothes to wear in your wardrobe. And you spot a nice piece of clothing, a favourite of yours. When you had picked it up a year back, you had gone with a good friend to a mall. You had picked it up 5 times from the rack, kept it back, because you were undecisive, then tried it once, asked your friend 10 times if it was worth the money or looked good at you. Today you know it looks great at you, it has proved it monetary worth and most importantly, you are no more in the same city where it was bought and the friend is distant now, atleast location wise.... Such stuff, accessories bring back a hoard of memorable moments, cities, places ! You just can't help but smile and spend time thinking about the place and people....

Similar is the case with movies, which you had watched first time in theatres with friends, family etc. Some food items which hold special place in our life, particular restaurants, certain dates, incidents... Which are absolutely personal to you and everytime you come across them or remember them or witness anything similar you simply smile !!!

You like walking at night, you are doing the same but alone.... You remember the times when you had amazing company to accompany you. You smile at the remembrance and feel special again...

One is browsing the phone for some particular message to be forwarded to some particular person and there you a hillarious joke .. One reads it and splits into laughter all alone and again !

One particular incident that I particularly smile at whenever i come to think of that friend is how she used to call my Tummy JELLY BELLY !!! I can never fail to smile at this one.... Infact if I am frank then I literally laugh out loud !!

You are cooking something in the kitchen, you have become quite professional at making it. But there was a time when cooking this same particular stuff seemed no less than Rocket Science ! And decoding the secret of cooking it nicely was like cracking some tough computer program ! Can you restrain a good , full on smile at such fond remembrance ?

One day you are arranging your stuff, in an old bag. And you come across a neatly filed, or kept good old birthday cards given to you bt friends when you were just kids... Try not smiling at such a time... I am sure you will fail !

Alone or in a group there are always some secret or personal pointers which make one smile , reasons unknown to others !!!!!

KEEP SMILING !!!!

Looking back and wishing ahead.... :)

Well…. A new year has begun… Brand new year with brand new stuff in terms of our expectations, hopes, aspirations…. We have bid farewell to 2009 and ushered in a new time… If we go by the MAYAN calendar and some predictions then we just have 3 years left to live… Khao Piyo Aish karlo bhai !! Kya pata KAL HO NA HO !! But yeahh… A word of caution- Don’t spend all your money honey… agar duniya khatam nahii hui to problem mein aa jaoge boss !!!! Ok..enough of the world coming to an end…

Let me talk about 2009… It was a real eventful year… There were highs and lows… Surprises and many monotonic activities… The first ten months were lost in trying to find a job and crying over it and the last two went about in a jiffy in actually working and crying under the work pressure… As the saying goes…. The grass is always greener on the other side!!

I shifted three bases this year… Initially from the Bong Land Kolkata to My good old Kanpur , then to Apni Saddi Dilli and finally to Gurgaon, The city of malls … A lot of things happened this year.. We protested n became rebels in ICFAI , A chapter of life called ACADEMICS ended for most of the batchmates, Moved on in life at the personal front, the mind went numb after leaving friends in Kolkata, Came to Kanpur and learnt swimming and did a lot of traveling to Delhi, Bhopal etc for giving various exams… I had given various cities as exam centres just because it was a good free time to visit Nani nani in Bhopal and mama in Delhi!!

I hunted for a job and started working in Gurgaon… There were a lot of news that came my way,,, Friends getting married, Getting jobs, Clearing exams, Going for nice trips, friends pairing up, friends breaking up, and n number of other things that showed up… God Bless ORKUT, FB and Google!!!

I blogged a lot in 2009 and thankuu my blog readers for actually reading the stuff !! As we say, everyday is different and brings in new possibilities and incidents so I am absolutely open to any new ideas in workplace and life…. Jo hoga mast hoga !!! I traveled a lot the last year, explored a lot of random places, wound a snake around my neck to pose for a snap, went back to my alma mater Hansraj to collect the graduation degree, ate my favorite cakes @ SETHIS, went back to nivedita girls hostel watched loads of movies, tried to understand the HARYANAWI accented Hindi , et all…..

And most certainly I did a lot of thinking and SOUL SEARCHING in 2009… Reason being, I had time on my hands… And yeah, the novels and books occupied a major portion of my time.. I read a lot… It was like I went through anything that I laid my hands and eyes on… as a result of spending so much time with books and computer my specs ka power increased !!!

WE Welcomed the new year in PG..nothing fancy….Just chilling (in cold) in the room inside the quilts and talking talking talking !! Nothing can beat the comfort and coziness of a warm blanket, tea/ coffee , snacks and people whom you are close to and can talk your heart out… at 12 patakhe bajne lage and we wished each other happy new year!!

In a way, 2009 was a real nice year for me.. Because the way I had excess time on my hands would never really be available again…I have started working and hardly get free time.. With time responsibilities would increase at work place and slowly after one gets into family life definitely gets tough and hectic.. This was one year where I was not pursuing anything academic and not working anywhere most of the part !! I was more or less VELLI and enjoyed a lot !!!

Hopefully the New Year will bring a lot of happiness for everyone and God will bless the world in abundance… CHEERS To world happiness!!!